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Sunday, April 27, 2008 !@#$% 2:36:00 AM
Hey guys, I'm back!!! For these past few days, things happened, but not those that I want...Maybe only those daily routine stuff happened...What I want is a fun-filled week and yet I got nothing much...Had been a really good girl these few days, went home after school and rot at home till I fall asleep and wake up on the next day for school...Literally NO LIFE!!! Told scooby some stuff, but he just doesn't seems to get it cause he thinks that I'm lying to him=.=Nice one!!!When I'm telling the truth, people thinks that I'm lying...Crywolf...Maybe I should just lie from now on...Much much easier for me too...Don't have to share with people what I'm going through and what's on my mind... Final decision: LIE AS MUCH AS I CAN FROM TODAY ONWARDS... P.S. Make sure you know when I'm lying and when I'm not, if not I wouldn't be even saying a single thing to you again...Nice rule I have here=D Been thinking quite alot, whether to tell him or not...People around me like laulau, bobby, buddy, scooby etc. whoever who knows about him seems rather eager...Eager in asking me to let him know...But people, I really don't know how...Loser me=[ I have the courage to love and somehow, I just can't find my courage back to let me tell him what I feel...Guess that this story of mine had gone too far somehow...You guys must be sick and tired of me whining...Sorry...Something's stopping me from telling him these...What is it???Ego, fear, friendship or do I even love him??? Love shouldn't be the word I guess, let it be like...From my point of view, love is two-sided, both parties involve have to have the same feeling towards each other, liking each other, that makes love...As for like, it's one-sided, hiding behind that someone you love and yet you can't/don't admit it to him/her...I think that's the meaning of love and like... In my case, I think I'm on the second option, I like him...The like that I once had many many years back in my life...Like and not Love... Anyway, I did this so many times, keeping quiet when I know I like someone...Eventually, I'll like someone else, it just takes time for it to fade off isn't it???I don't mind doing this again...I don't lose anything much...It's just a chance that I'm not willing to take...Let it slip pass me... Last but not least, got an anime to introduce you guys to watch, find it rather interesting for me, Vampire Knight...Found on crunchyroll, veoh and youtube... So far there's 3 episodes uploaded already...Every thursday there would be a new episode uploaded...For those who can't wait, you can watch it on veoh on tuesdays without the subs...Not very sure how many episodes the whole season have...Just gonna wait and see... Oh well...Gonna stop here for today...Sleep time!!!Good Night and Good Morning to you... Chios~~~ |
