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Monday, April 14, 2008 !@#$% 8:11:00 PM
Did something quite stupid during these past few days...Got myself into crappy times when I cried again... Lost my sense of direction again...What I can think of now is him and him... If only I could cry on somebody's shoulder...Someone reliable and willing to help...Someone...Perhaps you?Perhaps HIM? I don't know anything now...All I can do is think about him...Maybe my song writing days might come back again...Not very sure of that...my inspiration sort of left me hanging here...Alone and helpless...I can't do anything other than hanging... What can I say???Realise that my posts are mainly emo...Not much happy things happened to me recently... Today, I saw him...Had a few moments in which I wanted to tell him what I really felt these past few months...I love the way he smiles and the way he make me feel crappy...But somehow...He can't seems to know how I feel about him...Perhaps it was my silence, but I really don't know how to tell him how I feel...Just hope that he sees this... If not...Maybe one day...I would be able to open up and tell him what I wanted all these while and how bad I felt of keeping this from him...Maybe that day would come...And maybe not...Who knows??? All I need now is a shoulder to cry on and let myself go for that moment...To ensure that I can continue my journey...That long long journey...Where nothingness might conquer me... Chios~~~ |
